Wednesday, March 7, 2012

when we are anxious....

This quote appeared in a newsletter received today from the South Australian Council of Churches
Very timely, and very true for me...

When we are anxious we are inclined to overprepare.  We wonder what to say when we are attacked, how to respond when we are being interrogated, and what defence to put up when we are accused.   It is precisely this turmoil that makes us lose our self-confidence and creates in us a debilitating self-consciousness. 
Jesus tells us not to prepare at all and to trust that he will give us the words and wisdom we need.  What is important is not that we have a little speech ready but that we remain deeply anchored in the love of Jesus, secure about who we are in this world and why we are here.  With our hearts connected to the heart of Jesus, we will always know what to say when the time to speak comes.    Henri Nouwen  

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Why am I so quiet?


It's been ages since I last blogged. I have been unusually quiet.

This was highlighted to me today ....
At least 2 people asked me today – one during a lecture break, and the other while at work: "Why are you so quiet?" (or words to that effect)

I hadn’t realised that I was being so quiet, so it’s good that people are willing to reflect that back to me, and that they care enough to ask.
The question has left me pondering. Why am I so quiet? Is this a recent thing… just related to the Intensive 2 weeks I’m in, or is it more than that?

I think there are a few answers:

1.      Intensives: I’m nearing the end of a 2-week intensive, where I attend lectures in the morning, then ‘change hats’ and report for work (at the same institution) for the afternoon. Evenings have been spent reading in preparation for the next morning’s lecture. Transitioning from lecture to work has been difficult. I have found it hard to switch my brain between the two very different modes.
The Unit is “Introduction to Christian Theology”. I have really enjoyed the lectures and readings. We’ve discussed history, philosophy, doctrine, and wrapped our brains around lots of new words, phrases and ideas. The thing is, with each new idea, I can’t help but consider what I think of it – do I agree? What do I believe? There have been many moments when I have fully agreed, some where I’ve been quite cross about what Christians taught years ago, and others that have completely puzzled me.
So, I reckon the first reason why I’m quiet is simply that I’m doing a lot of internal processing, which I’m not quite ready to articulate, and then finding it difficult to re-set my brain as I walk across the car park from lecture room to work.

2.      Change: As I begin my second year as a candidate for minister of the Word, I am feeling very aware of the impact that study and my preparation for ministry is having on me, my family and other aspects of my life. The last few months especially have been difficult as we as a family have worked through some big decisions. I think life could be so much simpler and so much easier if I just threw up my arms and said, “Enough!... This is too hard”. I could withdraw and seek a simpler life.
but… everything in me wants to serve, wants to express my gifts for ministry, wants to do it well, and wants to do it now! The financial need to work full-time, while I study part-time to prepare for ministry is going to ease, ….one day. And while I’m working at College, part of the team, I have the most amazing opportunities, which I’m most grateful for.

3.       Confidence: as I learn more and more, I realise how little I know. This has had quite an impact on my self-confidence (which isn't normally high at the best of times). I’m less willing to speak up – it will only prove to others that I have no idea what I’m talking about!
I know this is quite ridiculous and illogical – it’s a stage I’m going through, and I hope it will pass quickly. 

Part of me is being suppressed – and it is I who is doing the suppressing.  

Hopefully, my next blog will be less self-focused!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

why smiles are so important to me

One of the areas of growth for me since candidating has been learning more and more about myself - what motivates me, what are my strengths and weaknesses, and so on.

Just recently I started some work on the Enneagram. I have been impressed with the way it has helped me understand more about myself. I have done other typologies in the past, including Myers Briggs. Enneagram has built on that for me.

I received the picture below in an email today, and for me, it describes (partly) how I see the world.
I haven't completed my work on the Enneagram, but I think I'm a type 9. This picture represents how I see the No 9 Peacemaker / Mediator.
I'd love feedback if anyone feels able to affirm or provide an alternative. (epecially if you understand the Enneagram)

... but then, maybe I'm a Type 2 (The Helper)??
This is definitely still a work in progress! But I'm enjoying finding out - maybe that says something about me!


Update:
Looking back on this over 5 years later, it is interesting to reflect on how I saw myself at the that time. These days I see myself as a type 7 'the Enthusiast'. 

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Synod Worship Sat 18 June

For those who have been asking about songs and other sources used for Worship at the recent Presbytery & Synod meeting, here is Saturday's Order of Service

The Otherness of God



Pre-service music
God of Wonders
CCLI song 3118747  ©  2000 New Spring (Admin. by Universal Music Publishing MGB Australia Pty Limited)  Storm Boy Music (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty. Ltd.)  Meaux Mercy (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty. Ltd.)
Here I am to Worship
CCLI song 3266032  ©  2000 Thankyou Music (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty. Ltd.)

Welcome

Call to Worship (from Psalm 8)
Includes lighting of a candle

Otherness
“Worship thrives on wonder. We can admire, appreciate and perhaps even adore someone without our having a sense of wonder. But we cannot worship without wonder. For worship to be worship, it must contain something of the otherness of God…..I've come to love that word—"otherness." It's such a great worship word. Otherness gives us a sense that God is so pure, matchless and unique that no one else and nothing else even comes close. He is altogether glorious—unequalled in splendor and unrivalled in power. He is beyond the grasp of human reason—far above the reach of even the loftiest scientific mind. He is inexhaustible, immeasurable and unfathomable—eternal, immortal and invisible. The highest mountain peaks and the deepest canyon depths are just tiny echoes of His proclaimed greatness. And the blazing stars above, the faintest emblems of the full measure of His glory.”[1]
Song
How Great is our God 
CCLI song  4348399  © worshiptogether.com songs  sixsteps Music  Alletrop Music
Chris Tomlin   Ed Cash  Jesse Reeves

Prayer of Thanksgiving: Psalm 8 Today's New International Version (TNIV)

Song
Praise to the Lord, the Almighty.. 
TiS 111  V1,2,3,5 with added hallelujahs. CCLI song #4345378
©
2004 Word Music, LLC  Rocketwon Music, LLC  Sweater Weather Music (Admin by CopyCare Pacific Pty Ltd)  Catherine Winkworth  Christy Nockels  Joachim Neander  Nathan Nockels

Bible Reading:  Matthew 25,  31 - 40 TNIV

Reflection “The Other and Other-ness” Lyn Leane

Prayers of Intercession Christa Megaw
Including prayer for  our partner church in the Philippines

Song
Mighty to Save
CCLI song 4591782  © 2006 Hillsong Publishing (Admin. by Hillsong Publishing (Australia))  Ben Fielding | Reuben Morgan

Blessing
“Embrace the hope to which God has called us.
Recognise Christ in friend and stranger,
and as Christ has been gracious to you,
so be gracious to those in need.

We go in peace to love and serve the Lord,
........In the name of Christ. Amen.[2]



[1] Excerpt from Facedown, © 2004 by Matt Redman. Published by Regal Books, www.regalbooks.com
[2] ©2002 Nathan Nettleton LaughingBird.net          
 

Synod Worship Fri 17 June

For those who have been asking about songs and other sources used for Worship at the recent Presbytery & Synod meeting, here is Friday's Order of Service 

Our generous God


Pre-service music
Hallelujah (your love makes me sing) 
CCLI Song No. 3091812 © 2000 Vineyard Songs (UK/Eire) (Admin. by Vineyard Music UK)   Brenton Brown, Brian Doerksen
Indescribable  CCLI song 4403076
CCLI Song No. 4403076  © 2004 worshiptogether.com songs (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty Ltd.) sixsteps Music (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty Ltd  Gleaning Publishing (Admin. by Crossroad Distributors Pty Ltd

Opening, including Acknowledgement of Country (Moderator)

Call to Worship
Invocation[1]   
a candle is lit part way through

Songs
Hallelujah (your love makes me sing) 
CCLI Song No. 3091812 © 2000 Vineyard Songs (UK/Eire) (Admin. by Vineyard Music UK)   Brenton Brown, Brian Doerksen
Blessed be your name
CCLI song 3798438   © 2002 Thankyou Music/Adm By worshiptogether.com songs   Matt and Beth Redman

Prayer of confession and assurance
from Uniting in Worship 2

The Peace

Psalm 145:1-9– “Bubbling Joy”[2]
a paraphrase, with bubbles

Prayers of Intercession

The Lord’s Prayer

Intro song The Great Southland (Denise Champion)

Song
The Great Southland – ver 2 with new verse by Denise Champion and co
CCLI song #917642   © 1993 Word Music, LLC Maranatha! Music   © 2004 Geoff Bullock.   Version 2 lyrics used with permission: www.geoffbullock.com   Optional first verse: Denise Champion, Jodie Whillas and Lynley Heath circa 1990

Statement of Faith
We are a pilgrim people.  Uniting In Worship 2. Adapted from the Basis of Union of the Uniting Church in Australia

Song
Praise God from whom all blessings flow (doxology)
CCLI song 56204  TiS 768 (i) Public domain. Words and music Thomas Ken and Louis Bourgeois

Blessing[3]

 

Monday, June 27, 2011

a letter to a friend

For my Reading Cultures class, I had to write a letter to a friend, telling them what I learned about a project we worked on. Here is an editted version.


Dear Friend,
I thought I’d write and tell you about a case study project I did for my Reading Cultures class this semester. (One of the many reasons you haven’t heard much from me over the last few months).

As part of our assessment for the class, we had to work in a group on a case study project. The groups were formed around the projects chosen. I chose to do a Spirit Walk, and ended up in a group of three women. 

We met briefly during lecture breaks, then added a lots of evening meetings (at a café or in the common space at College) to work on our project. I think we ended up having five of those evening meetings (at least 10 hours – or closer to 15!)

Working with these two ladies, sharing our ideas, learning together and sharing our lives together was a wonderful experience. I now have two new lovely friends.  

We were asked to choose five ‘sacred’ sites in the city and to prepare a resource, guiding ‘pilgrims’ around those sites. We were then to prepare a presentation that we were to make to the rest of the class at the end of the semester. We were to pretend that the class was a Church Council and that they had asked us (as ‘reading cultures experts’) to present a 30 minute report on their community and the implications of the life and ministry of their church going forward. We needed to include a primary ministry metaphor, reasons for choosing the sites, their significance and resources that we would give pilgrims at each site they visit.
As we worked together, we found that we generated more and more ideas. We decided quite early that the John 4 passage of the Woman at the Well was going to be important. But the more time we spent together, the more creative we got! As time went by, nervousness set in as we realised that we needed to make clear decisions about our Walk, the metaphor, and how we were going to present it to the ‘Church Council’. 

In the end, we were really proud of our presentation:
·       In our half hour we introduced the Church Council to our Walk and why were taking them through it. The Walk was to be a discernment tool for them, where they were to walk through the city, hearing stories of 5 sacred sites, and looking at the sites with new eyes, with the hope that the Holy Spirit would reveal something new to them through this process.
·       We then told them the John 4 story. The re-telling of the story was really special. We were captivated by the story teller (one of the ladies in our group). We then went on to introduce our ministry metaphor of the Well. (A public meeting place / A place of engagement / the living water / Jesus is the source of living water / the sense of ownership and history about the well (Jacob’s well). We asked: How can your faith community be a Well to the people of this community?
·       We gave an overview of the Walk itself and a very brief summary of which sites we had chosen and why and led in a prayer.
·       We then sang them a song! We had found a song that said everything we had hoped to say through our walk: You were in this place by Robin Mann.
·       We then handed out guidebooks that we had prepared. The books included the song we had sung, a map and information with photos about each of the five sites, with reflection questions, and lots of room for them to journal anything that the Holy Spirit may say to them as they go.
·       We gave the ‘church council’ some time to read through their guidebooks, imagining what it would be like to do this walk.
·       Finally, we talked about what we would do as they returned from their Walk, and how we would encourage them to meet with us again two weeks later, giving time for them to reflect and discern.
·       We closed with a reading from Revelations, relating back to the metaphor.
“The Spirit and the bride say, ‘Come!’ And let those who hear say, ‘Come!’ Let those who are thirsty come; and let all who wish take the free gift of the water of life.” (Revelation 22:17 TNIV)
Our presentation went really well. I think we achieved all that we had set out to achieve. We were really conscious that our presentation was very different in style to all the other groups, so we were quite nervous.

Through this case study I learned so much: about working with others, about the creative process (and how it can’t be rushed), about our city, about the use of metaphor for discernment, about some of the Kaurna history of our city, and about what sacred spaces can teach us about the culture and values of a community. 

Perhaps one day soon on one of these fabulous Adelaide sunny winter days we could do the Walk together? I have kept the guide book and think it would be a wonderful thing to do.

Love,
Linda

Monday, May 30, 2011

a definition of leadership?

I'm part of a team who has been looking at developing our own definition of Leadership.

Today I came across this quote in a Willow Creek Australia newsletter:
When God wants to begin a new work in the world, He almost always starts by speaking into the heart of one person. Drawing up the courage to listen, obey, and share the vision with others, these are the people we call leaders.
I really like this definition. It talks about bringing about something new; about it being God inspired; about having the courage to act,...

However, I keep coming back to the phrase, " He almost always starts by speaking into the heart of one person." 
Is that right? Is it always one person? Is it possible that He could speak into the heart of a number of people, and connect them in such a way that His vision can become a reality?
In many of my past ministry experiences, a vision has been born out of a group of people who share a passion for something, praying and then brainstorming ideas - is that a vision? was it God-inspired?

I'm not arguing about the definition of leadership... just questioning whether God always always starts with one person. 

Any thoughts?

I've been challenged to come up with some Biblical precedents. Any ideas anyone?